no more friends

It's so sad when you lose a friend because you know all this stuff about them.

You know their favourite colour, what TV show they watch, who they ship, what they like reading (if at all). You know what food they hate and what people they love. You know their parents and treat their siblings like they're your own. You know their birthday and what subjects they're good at and what subjects they enjoy.

When you're not friends anymore, you know all this stuff, but you can't use iot. The day of their birthday or when you see their favourite food in the supermarket are all just memories. They're painful at frst, reminding you about what you've lost; the friendship that is now gone. Over time, they become less painful and more of 'just a memory. They're moments in your past that you've just happened to experience with another peerson; a person that is no longer an important - if at all - part of your life.

I guess you just have to let go, but it's easier said than done. It's much easier if the person you were friends with is now/was a bitch but if the (friendship) breaking-up was amicable, it's worse because it just makes you feel guilty you guys aren't friends. You go through a 'should I have tried harder and yes, I probably I should have because now it's my fault that we're not friends' stage. And then you're a little bit angry because they should have tried harder and also because you just lost a friend.

So pretty much it's all a vicious circle and hold on to your friends because they're the only ones who can tease you about who you like while simultaneously bringing up memories from 10 years ago at 1am in the morning.